Listening to: Lost voices in the distance
Reading: Nothing in particular
Playing: 3rd Birthday
Eating: Double Thunder Burrito
Whatever I'm gonna do? Beign the bearer of this terrible truth that you have trusted within me, knowing of course that the worse of the worse could have happened, yet I forgave you. But keep in mind that this forgiveness comes with a higher and stackable price.
It burns me, deeper and continously.
How I long for things to have been the other way.
How I long for you to not have commited those acts, yet if that was what made you reevaluate your life and decided to do things the right way, knowing it was just all pain and suffering from all sides, then I have to be a man and deal with it the way I have been learning how to deal and cope up with things. It is your decision and I highly respect it. It is not my duty to tell you what to do, but to guide and assist through all whats to come. And help you to better understand the past and the present. It is my duty, not because I have been bestowed to, but because I have chosen to. Or maybe its the other way around.
This words are hard to type, but I had a way to put them out without loosing my mind. You know that for some reason there are some things I am unable to openly say to you via a regular conversation. This words are put ambiguosly and vague open up to the whole world, it is a means of liberation but I'm not saying anything you(or me) don't know, in fact these are some things only we know, and I mean them to stay like this...forever, forgotten if possible.
I am the bearer of a terrible truth, yet I will keep fighting to protect it.
That is...for you.
I no longer think for my own sake. I have came upon the harsh, harsh truth that helping the other is way more rewarding than satisfying your own needs. And if in the process your own needs are satisfied, that is a win for us both, and maybe the whole world would be at peace.